Thanks, Becky...

at least , I think I was the "Steph" you tagged. I'm just gonna go ahead and assume that I'm not self-centered and it was me. :)

Here are the rules for the Honest Scrap award -

The honorees are to:
A) first list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep!
B) pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.

So here go my 10 honest things.
1. I have given one of my sisters a black eye...by punching her...accidentally. Oh, I know what you're going to say....but it was so unsatisfying at the time (sorry, Cyd) that had I given her what she deserved and what I wanted, I prob would have given her a broken nose too. I'm really not a violent person, swear :)

2. My husband and I had only spent about 6 weeks of face time together before we married. (we met on internet and lived in different cities, and he deployed while we were engaged. Making our engagement 7 months and our knowing eachother 18months)

3. Since having children, skipping church has become such a real temptation and luxuriously therapeutic escape when I succumb to it.

4. I detest showers! Or the act of getting clean and primped. Oh! it brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. not really. But really, I'm dreading my next hair day....tomorrow. With the act of showering, shaving (if you're lucky), blow-drying, and straightening, and then possibly make-up, it becomes a 2hr chore! I used to love the act of primping....back when I was child-less and felt like the primping could make me sexy. I have my hair days down to 2 a week now.

5. Luke introduced me to true, real love. One of the first times I realized he was fur realz, was when he discreetly told me to smile, gave my tooth a quick swipe with his pinkie-nail, and said "I got it. You had a little piece of food..."
Knowing me, it was a huge piece of spinach or tortilla chip.

6. I'm scared of too much success. I'm not sure why certain levels of success scare me deep-down but I think I sabotage myself when I get scared of being too successful. (i.e. after working for so long to "make it" in the modeling world, I was offered a gig with MiuMiu and Seventeen, among others, and instead flew home from Milan and ate myself into chubby)
I need therapy.

7. I pass gas. And I think I may suffer from narcissism.

8. I can't imagine life without Luke...I'm a mess when he's on deployments and I'll oft use the excuse of songs to cry (songs like Toby Keith's American Soldier) out my fears/frustrations. I don't like that there is a higher price on his head than most. But I know that he is a born soldier and would be happier fighting for his family and country, than sitting at home, letting his "brothers" fight for him.

9. I (this is what makes me think I've got narcissistic tendencies) get more worried thinking about myself dying than Luke. Nobody can love my children like I do. And I wouldn't expect Luke to not re-marry, so I can't help but think about how they might be raised with anything less than my love.

10. Out of everything in the world....I think children behaving "badly" stress me out more than anything. weird. My heart starts beating faster, sometimes I sweat in places that I didn't know you could, and if the kids are really lucky, I'll turn red.


Now I am giving the honest award to:
Shauna H. (as if there's another in my life)
Diane B.
Leah V.
Jessica S.
Megan D.
Desiree V.
Nicole S.